The theme for this week’s Sunday confession is “lost”. It’s perfect for me this week – as I’m lost. This week I “lost” my temper. And as a result I “lost” my way again. I’m ever disappointed that I need to continually come back around to parenting the way I want to parent – and co-parenting with dignity and integrity and respect. Because I lose my plot way to often. And more often then not it causes more harm than it does good. I don’t see my way back from this one – and the only way I can see solving it without thousands of dollars in legal costs is going back to the parenting coordinator. And my ex will view this as a win. Which means that I’ve lost.
- Sunshine. Somehow it always makes things better.
- Long bike rides. I did seven miles yesterday. And it feels good.
- Spending time with my family. It’s just Hubs and Bae and the dog this weekend – but I’ve snuggled and bonded and overall had a wondeful time. And the best part is it’s not over yet.
- Vacations. I took a few days off this week to take care of a few errands. I went on a school trip with Puck – and he loved it. I was supposed to do IEP and take Puck to the dentist the next day – but poor Flower got a stomach bug. So I’m thankful I’d already taken time that I could be home with her.
- Extra time. As Flower was still sick and Puck had a bit of a fever on Friday, I kept them home from school. Their father normally gains custody at 8:15 but as he’d worked the night before, he let me keep them until 10:30. We didn’t do anything special – but I’m grateful for the extra time.
- Wagons. Bae has just discovered this wonderous invention – and has been walking his wagon down the street towards the:
- Park. I love the park. I love that our city planners have gone out of their way to make sure that there are recreational areas and paths and lovely things everywhere. One just a block from our house.
- Laps and blankets. Bae is sitting on my lap with his soft teddy bear this moment, snuggling with a blanket. It’s so lovely my heart could burst.
- Green. My garden is now a burst of green. And shortly it will be filled with the colors of all the bulb that I’ve planted.
- Kisses. Bae has just mastered them. And isn’t shy about sharing.
- Smiles.
- Laughs and giggles.
- Tickling.
- Fingers.
- Toes.
- Teddy bears.
- Family.
- Good friends.
- Cardinals and canaries singing in my back garden.
- Outside.
- Long walks.
- The beach.
- Monkeys.
- Tongues.
- Deoderant.
- Toothpaste.
- Hot showers.
- A hot cuppa tea.
- Blooms and buds.
- Sprinklers.
- Splash pads.
- Windows.
- Bananas.
- Brownies and other chocolate things.
- Colored marbles.
- Gut sucking mommy bathing suits.
- Patios.
- Ice cream.
- Farmer’s markets.
- Fresh rhubarb.
- Fresh strawberries.
- Lightening moods. (Because this list is making me smile).
- British humor. (Sorry – it’s more sophisticated than most of the home grown stuff and makes me laugh every time).
- Knock knock jokes.
- Logic.
- Clean bathrooms.
- Ear plugs.
- Legs that can walk.
- Reclining deck chairs.
- Sunscreen.
- Crayons.
- Paint.
- Grandparents.
- Wildflowers.
- Bare feet.
- Grass.
- Fingerprints on windows.
- Squeaky doors.
- Books.
- Technology.
- Photographs.
- Hearty indoor plants.
- Good wine.
- Heartbeats.
- Doctor Who.
- Imagination.
- Fresh made bread.
- Just enough wind.
- Ladybugs.
- Bird feeders.
- Toasted raisin bread with a bit of butter melted on top.
- Hugs. (How did i forget to mention them until now?)
- Braless weekends.
- Shorts.
- Slobbery dog kisses and wet noses.
- Tennis balls.
- Watering cans.
- Lazy Sunday mornings.
- Sleeping naked.
- Waking up naked.
- Good music.
- Potato chips for breakfast.
- Elmo.
- The alphabet song.
- The perfumy smell of blossoms.
- The New Muppet Show.
- Fresh baked cookies.
- iPad and iPhones – and Facetime with Grandma.
- Arms – that can turn you into an airplane with a little imagination.
- Dancing.
- Summer rain.
- Puddles.
- Rainboots.
- Dog cookies.
- Goats.
- Cheese.
- Fresh orange juice.
- Wedding rings.
- Mad typing skills.
- Lizzi Rogers – and #10Thankful.